Drawing things together
And so in conclusion:
This has been a process; I have noted down, read and re read, struggled, had moments of flying and that feeling of ‘big thumbs’ that seems to be one of my bodily indicators of ‘occurrence’. I have felt despondent; I have wondered why I agreed to do this (and why I thought doing a PhD in general might be a good idea)
But it has helped me see and understand more clearly what it is that I am looking at. I can recognise the links in a way I didn’t before, I am seeing a map that opens up more each time I look and shows me pathways and links between.
I realise that I am not someone of absolutes, I find definitives hard, I am not generally interested in an oppositional stance; interested more in reworking and unpicking things in the context of my doing; as Simon O’Sullivan suggests, a process of ‘affirmation of other practices, activities and works.’1 A bringing together of approaches and ideas.
The aim for me is to try and make ‘new’ events out of gather materials (both ‘stuff’ gathered and ideas, thoughts and theories) A bringing things together to create an atmosphere where embodied response may occur and that if they can slip and slide and relate in different ways with different bodies in different moments then maybe a striated / structured thing will ‘become’ a smooth space.
I am attempting to make + recorded / explicate / share / think through this.
I want to notice when something is happening – but, again, back to the beginning – when I notice its probably passed.