AVAILABILITY GENERATES AVAILABILITY

 

Hurriedness makes haste, lays waste or seeks to plunder. For to hurry is to rush or run against, as with the hurl of rushing water or of the utterance vehemently thrown. Indeed, to be rushed or hurried impacts beyond the individual’s breathless race against time. Notice the hurt in hurtling, the inadvertent harm of dash and bustle, the incidental casualties of reactive urgency caught in the surge of reckless speed. Unhurried is the necessary time of leisure and of contemplation. A paradoxical slowness can anticipate the most critical of action. Boredom can become a germinal ground for transformation. Boredom’s emptying out of meaning can create the conditions of defamiliarisation, estrangement or even wonder, from which to then reconceive things afresh. Consider the experiential proximity of yawning and gaping, mouth rendered open wide by involuntary gasp for air. The hiatus of hesitation can lead to unexpected openings and ruptures. The lesson of unhurriedness is to bide one’s time. To be unworried by hurry does not mean to retreat from life’s discordant rhythms into a melody of one’s own. Nor is it to absolve oneself of all responsibility, to defer from acting by waiting for another to take the lead. To avail oneself is to make use of the situation for one’s own advantage, to benefit by or to otherwise gain from. Alternatively, to make oneself available is to give more than to take, to offer rather than to withhold, to be of service to each situation at hand. Observe the reciprocal nature of availability, how availability generates availability. Notice how by making oneself more available to time’s unfolding, time itself might somehow feel more available, more open, perhaps even more free. Free(d) time — time released from the pressures of utility or obligation, an alive time unburdened by the deadliness of due dates and deadlines. Here, time is no longer experienced as a constraint or container of life’s unfolding, but rather as its living, beating pulse.

 

From Emma Cocker, How Do You Do? (Nottingham: Beam Editions, 2023)