PRACTICE AS DOSAGE

 

Navigate your own edges and thresholds. Identify your tolerances and resistances. Know when to push yourself and when to pull back. Resist being too judgmental, often a reaction of uncritical critique based on unspoken preconceptions or presumptions, on protocol or convention. Practise one’s own judgment in and of the moment. Against the conditioning that posits certain experiences (failure, awkwardness, embarrassment, discomfort) as best avoided, for such states can open towards new possibilities if handled lightly or serve as a germinal ground for building trust and intimacy with others. Against the conditioning that posits certain experiences (play, joy, delight, spontaneity) as frivolous or thoughtless, for such states can lead to new insights if they are allowed. Learn to differentiate between experiences that diminish the capacity for creative practice (that paralyse, prohibit, inhibit, injure) and those that affirm (that are generative, transformative, that life-enhance). Yet note that nothing is ever experienced as the same. One situation might feel positive to one person while detrimental to another. One’s own receptivity to an event can change by the hour, by the minute, second to second. Practice as dosage. Exposure to an experience within a controlled environment as a means for testing its effects. Not to inoculate against experience but rather to become more sensitised, more capable of recognising ever-subtler nuance. To sensitise — to endow with sensation, from the Latin sensus, past participle of sentire, to feel-perceive. Extension of perception, of sensation and awareness. Activate new realms of experience beyond one’s habits and preferences. Exceed the limits of one’s own tendencies, one’s likes and dislikes.

 

From Emma Cocker, How Do You Do? (Nottingham: Beam Editions, 2023)