Conclusion
To bring this presentation of my journey to an end, I share some observations-extracts from the reflective writing that accompanied the practical process:
-When practicing with different vowels, I noticed that I find a and o more challenging, especially in lower pitches. The vowel e leads me to more lateral movements, while with i and u I find more freedom in movement and bigger duration in my breath. Especially with i, I find it easier to balance and I sense more potential in the movement. Maybe the difference comes from the sensation of vibration that puts me in a powerful mood, and it is easiaer to find it with the vowels i and u as I find it easier to use the inner spaces of the body for clearer sound prrojection.
-I tend to expand or move upwards when inhaling and gather towards my center when exhaling. Sometimes, if I try the opposite, I feel stuck because it doesn't come naturally and others it leads me to new movement vocabulary. It is an area that I am still processing and exploring to understand deeper.
-The somatic vocal toning gives me a feeling of calm power and readiness to experiment with my voice.
-When improvising freely at the end of each practice, I tend to trace memories of tasks I experimented with earlier, while at the same time, I experience a sensation of letting go of thoughts, moving away from the mind and allowing the movement and the voice to lead me without preplanning or worrying about aesthetic results. It occurs naturally to pass from one task to the other without thinking about instructions anymore. There is a dialogue generated between voice and movement, where both alternate the lead organically. I find this order of tasks to have a build-up that prepares me for liberation.
-Singing while moving through positions that activate the body and using the contrast between high pitch and grounded movement and vice versa, allows me to find more clarity in the projection of the voice. Finally, bending forward to avoid abdominal tension when I feel that my breath is finishing and I need to prolong it, has become my safety net.
-Passive Sequencing has managed to unblock me even in the most difficult days that I feel stuck and I don't know where to start and how. It has helped me so much that I have started making connections with ways to apply it in daily life in general.
-The tremors and alternation between pressing and releasing have become part of my daily routine for any moment I feel my body stiff even if I am not preparing for a dance class or rehearsal but just to be functional throughout my day. It is not every time easy to find the tremors and, even if I am trying to notice what affects it, I keep getting surprised every time with how easy or difficult it may come.
-The breathing exercises have literally saved me from emotional explosions and overwhelming situations. They make me feel a huge difference in my practice, more prepared mentally, emotionally, and physically, and after doing them I find more ease in my body, I feel it easier to connect my breath with my movement, and a very enjoyable fluidity and smoothness occur; I feel more space inside my joints, softer and more coordinated, in control when I want and able to let go if I choose, “on my feet”, available to balance with calmness and no tension, and most importantly, more present.
-The use of voice while moving, other than giving me feedback about non functional breathing or stiffness in my body, also helps me to activate my facial muscles, feel more awake, alive, energetic and present, and have different, naturally occurring, facial expressions that usually I don’t.
This research has been a transformative journey. It made me reconsider a lot of things that I didn't pay enough attention to, realize nuances that cause huge differences in my relationship with my body, voice, and breath, and enrich my practice in a very creative, meanigful, and nurturing way. I had been trying to experiment with the combination of voice and movement in the past, but without cnonsciously thinking about functional breathing. As a result, I had a feeling of limitation in the movement in order to not interrupt the voice, and I was struggling a lot with the duration of my breath. At the same time, I had a lot of self-judgmental expectations that didn't allow this enjoyment to bloom. Finally, finding the therapeutic lense as a starting and connecting point, this combination feels not forced, but liberated, with endless potential, and I am glad to have these new realizations in my toolbox. I hope in the future to share this practice with more people and explore the different and or similar effects that it may have on them.