How I tried to retreaving the memory back
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Per: Could you describe what the space looks like from your vantage point of you as a six-year-old?
Me: There is a yellow light bulb, hanging straight above me from the ceiling... there are these wooden boxes surrounding me that look like houses with roofs. And there is a small carpet. And I’m sitting on it… and the room feels elongated when I look up… I am drawing, with papers spread around me.
Per: How does this carpet look like?
Me: I am actually not sure whether it was a carpet or the bare floor. Maybe it was a plastic floor...? Should I just guess something?
Per: No, rather concentrate on the feeling of the space, the floor underneath your feet, the lamp, the elongated room…
(Waits for while)
How does the lamp feel hanging from this elongated ceiling?
Me: It feels natural. But, I’m not feeling that I am there, like there is something other than that space present as well.
Per keeps asks me to focus on different details until we define the general feeling I have being in that multidimensional space.
Per: Where does the pleasant feeling sit in the body?
Me: (Long pause) It is in my whole body… I feel a buzz in and around my head.
Per: Good, let’s focus on that for a while… (Per helps me focus on the feeling as an image) Could you go back to the white papers on the floor - are there many or are they loosely spread out?
Me: They are normal A4 papers...
Per: What position do they have in regard to you?
Me: They are on the floor spread out around me. There are a couple of papers that are already drawn on. And I am taking a next one and then the next one...
Per: Is there a paper that has not been drawn on yet, that is empty?
Me: Yes…
Per: Where is it on the floor?
Me: In front of my eyes, but further away from the other papers.
Per: What angle is it at?
Me: One edge is pointing at me, and the paper is on the pile of other papers, so it is whiter than the rest of the papers which are spread out on the floor.
Per: Feel that bundle and that whiteness… (Pause) How does it feel that you will now start drawing on one of them?
Me: It feels natural… like an indisputable fact. But there is no rush either.
Per: Feel that certainty. The papers are lined up waiting for you to draw on them? There is no rush… And those papers, do they also know that they will be drawn upon?
Me: They do…
Per: Do they know that all of them will be drawn on?
Me: Yes, they do…
Per: Feel that anticipation in the paper. And this certainty. Where is this feeling concentrated in the papers the most?
Me: It is in the edges... They are waiting to be picked up.
Per: Feel the edges awaiting. The certainty without a rush. The agreement between you...
Per repeats the description of the image until I am fully immersed in the situation. He has found the second anchoring point in the situation. He then goes on to ask me about the very moment I decide to begin drawing.
Me: It is again a form of agreement between us (me and the papers). Now we are going to have fun. I will start first with you and then with you and so forth…
Per: What is the relationship between you and the pens and the papers?
Me: They are my playmates.
Per: Are they equal to you as playmates?
Me: Mmmm, I’m the leader. I lead the game… Everybody is okay with that.
Per: Where in your body does that feeling feel the strongest? “I will be leading the play? We shall have fun.”
Me: In my chest…
Per: Feel that feeling of certainty, joy and readiness to play in there?
This is where Per identifies the third anchoring point. Then we go through the entire situation again. This time Per is retelling me what is happening, so I can focus on feelings and the anchoring points. We exit the incubation when I am ready and feel that the feelings are set in my body.
This is an excerpt from the incubation I was working with my dream coach Per Nordin - for soundbites click here