Some might say that I was recording a random stream of consciousness; nevertheless, I think it was something more than that. From the experience of trying to capture a stream of memories onto paper, I can say that the process was hardly random or unguided. When starting to recall a certain moment, thousands of associations started appearing in the mind. Some scenes were so vivid that they were impossible to translate into language; some others were so blurry that there was hardly any word that could encapsulate them. At the same time, the way memories appeared in the mind was so exuberant that it was impossible for the text to keep up with the pace of the mind. It became obvious then that a lot of personal control and authority was involved in the process of remembering.