Research Catalogue

Detta är en text fristående från men ändå del av mitt forskningsprojekt om våldtäktsmotivet i Monika Fagerholms Vem dödade bambi? och Fredrik Backmans Björnstad. Jag har skrivit ner min läsning som poesi, för jag tror att poesin är ett språk som kan tillföra något. Jag har skrivit ner mina känslor och tankar för jag tror på ett slags ”situated knowledge” att det är viktigt att minnas vem man är och från vilken punkt man läser texten. Jag vill använda detta för jag tror att det privata är politiskt och att forskningen är personlig, och att jag är begränsad i min gränslöshet, det finns inget objektivt. Denna text är ett undantagstillstånd och ett resultat av en plats och en tid. Jag tror att någonstans i denna text kan något relevant hittas.

This project is part of the bigger project "Autistiskt skrivande. Ett modersmål / Autistic Writing. A Mother Tongue", funded by Vetenskapsrådet. The bigger project aims to investigate neuroqueer, and specifically autistic ways of using language. Melanie Yergeau use the term "neuroqueer" to point to the "sidling, desiring, idealizing" aspects of being of a neurofunction set apart from the neurotypical norm. This article is a collaborative piece of writing, created as a poetic research method in how rhetorics are used to inform and create oppressive as well as empowering games of language. Julia Miele Rodas calls it an Autistic Poetics, a way of living with words that exceeds the communicative aspect and leaks into the a(u/r)tistic mind. This text was written as a letter correspondence, a love act, and a curious performance. It is based in a neuromixed research environment and investigates the poetic mode of writing as a platform for further understanding. About the autors: Hanna Bertilsdotter Rosqvist is an Associate Professor in Sociology and currently a Senior Lecturer in Social work at Södertörn University. Their research is primary oriented towards disability, but also on gender, sexuality and space Elisabeth Hjorth is an author, essayist and Senior Lecturer in Literary Composition at Gothenburg University. Their latest publication was Mutant (Glänta, 2021) Anna Nygren is an author, dramaturgue and Lecturer in Literary Composition at Gothenburg University. Their latest publication was Fuck Your Marsvin And Dö (Poesiwerken, 2021)

This exposition is a multimedial, but mostly textual, documentation of years and years of working with horses as a motif and a method for making art, theory, texts, thoughts and feelings. Horses in art has a long history. My take on it is a girlish one; drawing from a feminist, queer and neurodivegrent position. The horse works with embodiment, textualities, reading, love, care, mis/understandings, closeness, sadness, obsessions, un/subjectivities, collectivity, and much more. The horse allows the artist to be a troyan horse within the field of art and academia, but it also shares vulnerabilities an power imbalances. The horse, here, is everything. Instructions for the viewer/reader: The exposition contains years of work. Please do not watch or read everything (even if you are wellcome to do so). Do act like a horse choosing which leaves of grass to eat. Choose carefully but spontaneously, wander around. A field work. A field of horses.

My research is a failed writer's failed attempt to become a literary scholar. I'm researching from the position of an amoeba in academia – at certain moments I claim to be a Trojan Horse, a Trixster, or something else subversive. But more often than not it just ends up being: failure. I write from a writing-reading position. Where my reading of literature is infiltrated by my writing practice. This exposition is based on my failed dissertation in literature, which I am now trying to recover in the form of an artistic research project. The literary dissertation is about Monika Fagerholm's novel "Who killed Bambi?" (2019), and my failure is the inability to be scientific and detached, to stay within the framework. In the exposition I examine this from a queer/lesbian and neuroqueer/autistic perspective. I start from an emotional (un)knowledge and try to distort ideas and boundaries between failure and play.

We, Anna N. and Barb/Brab, started an exchange of thoughts about the meaning of "aut" – as in aut/istic and aut/oimmune. We are interested in what it means to live as auts, to write about it in regard to everydaily life, in regard to the medical discourses about autism and autoimmunity, and in regard to the view of the "others", the not-auts. In the context of language-based artistic research we seek to develop practices that allow for investigating the meaning of aut on different levels of our existence. * (Speaking out and at the same time speaking as auts, but also speaking in a language called "aut")